OT: Where can I meet a female companion with similar interests and personality /in person/?

Brolin Empey brolin at brolin.be
Sat Jan 2 05:01:17 CET 2010

2009/11/30 Brolin Empey <brolin at brolin.be>:
> 2009/11/12 Brolin Empey <brolin at brolin.be>
>> Hello list,
>> I am writing a follow-up/update to my original post just over 2 months
>> later.
>> What has changed since my original post?
> Another update.  What has changed since my last update?

I finally chose and ordered a laptop (a Dell Vostro V13) so I can use
the same PC at home and work.  Of course, I am already regretting my
choice, but at least I chose something.  I always seem to regret my
computer purchases.

I have started moving most of the crap I am packratting to my new
apartment.  I have to wait until Sat, 2010-01-09 to move my furniture
because that is when I planned to have my sister and friend help me.
I am afraid I am going to be even lonelier living alone instead of
with my parents, but at least I will have more privacy.  I am also
afraid I am going to starve because I dislike having to stop what I am
doing to buy food, prepare meals, clean up after meals, etc.  Food
preparation does not interest me because the results seem so extremely
ephemeral.  I am an intellectual and emotional animal (person) who
wants to understand himself by self-study and communication without
having to (what seems like) always worry about eating because my mind
is embodied in the body of an animal, which I do not understand.  I
really wish I did not have to eat because it would make my life so
much easier.  I do not know how to describe my mental state properly,
but I always seem to be seeking an answer which cannot be found.  I
know, this sounds like Neo in The Matrix. :P  I wonder if my mental
processes are really so unusual because they usually seem strange to

I am still lonely because I have no female companion, but at least I
have my male friends, even if I rarely meet them in person.  I know I
have to try new things (go to unfamiliar events and/or places) to meet
girls, but I have been isolating myself more again because that is how
I am.  I do not know what is wrong with me, but I end up making myself
so lonely because I am so inclined to isolate myself.  My parents and
teachers have noticed my lack of (face-to-face/in person) peer
interaction and have been concerned about it since elementary/primary
school.  I do not understand how non-autistic people can seem to
function so much better than me and easily have more close friendships
than me.

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