State of FreeCalypso

[Bob Ham]

On Tue, 2015-04-21 at 21:28 +0000, Spacefalcon the Outlaw wrote:
> Bob Ham <rah at settrans.net> wrote:
> 
> > > Because I use one to stay in touch with the people who matter in my
> > > life
> >
> > What would be the consequences if you didn't have a mobile phone to do
> > that?
> 
> I consider this status quo to be a very poor state of affairs

That doesn't sound like a particularly grave consequence.  Feeling that
something is "a very poor state of affairs" doesn't seem like motivation
for threatening murder.

> > True.  However, there's a very big difference between deriving
> > satisfaction from doing worthwhile work and being pathologically
> > dependant on it.  I don't know any other free software developers who
> > threaten to murder those who get in the way of their work.  It looks
> > like for you, the work isn't done just for satisfaction, it looks like a
> > need.
> 
> The need I had at that time has been satisfied, hence there is nothing
> relevant to the present in need of discussion here.

I disagree.  The same pathological need still seems very much present.
And the emphasis here is on the "pathological".  In your emails to this
list, there is still a very strong strain of psychological
disequilibrium and this is a bad thing, for the list, the wider
community and for you.

On the one hand you're saying that your phone work is so important that
your life withered away for two years because of it, and that it
justifies threatening murder.  On the other hand, you're saying that the
only reason you need a mobile phone is to contact your loved ones.  I
don't understand why you can't use a land line with a firmware-less
handset.  The fact that you're currently using a mobile phone with a
proprietary firmware without threatening to murder people shows that
there's some contradictions in what you're saying.  Either you're full
of shit, or you're not aware that there are contradictions.  Assuming
you're not full of shit, examining the contradictions and making them
conscious can help to resolve the internal conflicts which give rise to
your dysfunctional behaviour.  Of course, if you are full of shit then
there's a whole other set of internal conflicts to deal with.

You asked me how you torture yourself now.  I'm trying to answer that
question.  In doing so, it's possible that the dysfunctional content of
your regular expositions on this list can be resolved and we can all
live more peacefully, including yourself.

I'll provide you with some examples so that you're aware of what is
inappropriate.  Some of these are quite innocuous statements by
themselves but their inappropriate nature becomes clear when seen as
part of a pathological pattern:

On Sat, 2015-04-18 at 06:15 +0000, Spacefalcon the Outlaw wrote:

> my old peasant mind

> it has occupied me on and off (unpaid volunteer time is naturally
> limited) for a year and a half now

> Unfortunately there is only one of me

> The amount that's been raised ... will certainly help relieve my
> and Shannon's current severe hardship

On Sat, 2015-04-18 at 17:41 +0000, Spacefalcon the Outlaw wrote:

> unprivileged persons like me

> nobodies like me

> there is no longer any need for me to kidnap, torture or kill anyone

> there is no more need to resort to life-sacrifice means

On Sat, 2015-04-18 at 21:32 +0000, Spacefalcon the Outlaw wrote:

> your former coworkers who badly hurt me

> the 2 years of mental TORTURE you put me through

> the painful 2 y long episode